Fear and Ego…

Aimee Angelique Fear and Ego Blog Post

Fear and Ego… (My Thoughts and Musings).

Are you letting Fear hold you back?
Is your ego running the show?

I have been thinking and journaling quite a bit about fear and the ego lately. It’s something that I have allowed to control my life for many years.. If I break my life up into chunks I can certainly see a pattern and where I have allowed my ego to run the show…

Something in recent years I have been wanting to create but have continued to allow fear to scare me is I have wanted to  film yoga videos. I have kept having the desire to create and bring to life this project but have continued to let my ego hold me back..

  • Fear of what others might think (other yoga teachers in particular).
  • Fear of what I will think of myself.
  • Fear that it won’t be good enough.
  • Fear that I will do it wrong.
  • Fear that I will do a bad job.
  • Fear of judgment and criticism.

My ego has been totally running the show… she has been holding me back and deliberately trying to keep me “small”..  Last week I completely stepped outside my comfort zone and started to film this new project that has been calling me for some time now..  Ever since I started teaching yoga I have had my students asking me for yoga videos so they can also practice yoga at home… I kept making excuses like “I wasn’t a good enough teacher to film videos” I have also been so fearful putting myself out the for others to judge and criticise me as a teacher, a student, as a person and as a woman…

This voice inside kept saying “you need to loose weight first so you can look like a really fit and toned yoga teacher like all the other yoga teachers on Instagram… You need to wait for your skin to clear up so you look flawless.. You need to wait till you’ve done more teacher training… You need to wait till you find the perfect person to work with”… and the list goes on and on and on…

I want to share this with you because I want you to try and give you an understanding of the “ego”… she is very tricky and she tries to hold you back… and even after doing continuous work on myself for over 12 years (yoga, energy healing, holistic health etc etc) my ego still shows up constantly!

**Spoiler alert** You will always have an ego..those nasty voices in your head… and your ego will always be there to test you! (Unless you are completely “enlightened” which I can assure you I am not there yet! It’s all part of the journey my beautiful friend…) It’s just about learning how to stop buying into her nasty stories and words… it’s about leaning to turn down the volume on her… I use things like positive affirmations and mantras to combat her nasty words… I have learnt how to not buy into the stories and come back to love… and believe me it takes work… and I am not perfect… I need to practice self love and self care daily so I don’t allow my ego to take over and run the show…

In the lead up to filming the videos… things didn’t go according to plan and my ego kept trying to test me and make me fall back into the fearful trap and cancel the day of filming/the whole creative project… I wasn’t feeling great about myself.. I was feeling tried, exhausted and a little overweight… my home yoga practice has been terrible… I sprained my shoulder a couple of weeks ago (and still healing)… I ran out of my make up and the new make up I ordered didn’t arrive in time… I couldn’t find new pants/an new outfit that I wanted to wear that made me feel amazing… my skin broke out (probably because of stress & hormones)… I was feeling bloated… it was raining on the day and my extremely curly hair went frizzy (girls with curls will understand!) and the triggers and fearful thoughts kept coming and coming…  All of these things may sound like “first world problems” and they are but these are the kind of triggers your ego will use to try an get you to live from fear and hold you back… so we need to use our self love and self care tools to try and combat her nasty ways…

Fear and Ego try desperately to keep us in our comfort zone but when we make the decision to bravely step outside our comfort zone this is where the real magic happens… we are more open to learn about ourself, we welcome new experiences and doors start to open.

I would love to now invite you to do a little exercise… I’d love you to start to think, ponder and journal about what fearful thoughts you are currently having and what are you allowing the ego to hold you back from?

Here are some thoughts to get you started:

  • What is your fear/ego holding you back from?
  • Starting a new job/career?
  • A new partner? (Starting or ending a relationship).
  • Healing yourself?
  • Your health?
  • Self love/self acceptance?

Please remember everyone is different and we all have different triggers but let me tell you beautiful woman it is so powerful to know your personal triggers so you can then find and create ways (and tools) to break pattens or bring awareness to when the patterns are playing out and to then take control and no longer feel trapped by your fear and ego…

As always thank you for being here and sharing this journey with me. It is an honour to share these thoughts with you…

Much love Aimee X

P.S Here is a little sneak peek at my new video series coming soon! “The Breathe Dream Create Love: Home Yoga Practice.”

My Past, present & future.

Aimee Angelique Dollface My Past, present & future

As you’d already know by now, I loooove me some Social Media. I’m on all the channels – Facebook. Insta. Snapchat. And would you believe, yep, Youtube. I even have my own channel!

Now once upon a time, in a far away life, I was a self-started Pop Princess. That’s right ladies and gents, I was singing and dancing and partying up a storm in good old Sydney town. Back in ‘those days’, I was doing fashion photoshoots and promotional work. I was working in crazy clubs in the city. And believe it or not, I also recorded my own music video (seriously!) – it was very sexy. It was very risqué. It was very much filmed in my apartments carspace! In my former life, I’ve created my own Dance Festival and Cabaret shows. I’ve ran my own Event Management Company (or at least that’s what we called it on my Resume). So as you can imagine, all these things are a far cry from the person and life I’m living today.

The inspiration for this blog post came about because I’ve had a few students and acquaintances mention they’re going to ‘google me’ when anything about my past life emerges. And it’s a poignant reminder for me that nothing on the internet is gone forever.

So, lets delve in to the ME you haven’t met.

I grew up as a ‘Defence Kid’ being shipped around the countryside until we finally settled in Medowie when I was 8 years of age (I was even born in Malaysia!). I attended a local Primary School here in Medowie and then went on to attend a Performing Arts High School before finally leaving at the end of year 10, 16 years of age with a bunch of hopes and dreams (and at least 6 suitcases full of baggage relating to self-esteem, body image, self-loathing, depression and anxiety).

At the tender age of 17 and feeling so ready to take on the world, with my parent’s support (but complete and utter fears of letting their little girl go), I moved to Sydney. The BIG SMOKE. I was on a fast track to becoming the next BIG THING! Pop Star! Actress! DJ! IT Girl! I was working extremely hard to make these dreams happen; creating shows and recording my music, working ridiculous hours and ridiculous jobs to support myself and my dreams; I was buying up big. I had the bags, shoes, designer clothes, fancy apartment. The problem was, these ridiculous hours and ridiculous jobs were completely feeding my insecurities. My 6 suitcases full of baggage was growing by the day.  This time I added in stress at trying to maintain my busy lifestyle and threw in some lack of sleep, struggling to keep up with my 5 (!!) jobs.

It got to the point where I knew my lifestyle wasn’t sustainable. I was on a fast track alright, but it wasn’t to fame and stardom; I was coming 100 miles an hour for exhaustion, depression and anxiety. Doctors were suggesting medication with promises of taking away all my problems but I knew intuitively this wasn’t for me. My art and creativity is found in my energy. If my energy was taken, who was I?

I watched friends and colleagues self-medicate their own issues with drugs and alcohol. Thankfully, this was never my thing; I’ve never tried drugs & alcohol dulled my fun. So I became addicted to ‘stuff’. Having a bad day? Surely that designer handbag will make me feel better. Feeling like the world is against you? Buy a new pair of expensive shoes, you’ll feel a million dollars. Feeling fat and ugly? Head off to the exclusive hair salon and spend hundreds of dollars trying to find your self-esteem somewhere in a hair colour. Now, I’m a trained make-up artist. So for me, I didn’t leave the house unless I had a full face. I’m talking the whole works. The kind of makeup you might have had done last time you were your friends bridesmaid – that was me. Every day. Every single day. I didn’t dare leave the sanctity of my home without my ‘face’.

To help me along in my path to stardom, I’d acquired so many ‘friends’! Oh the friends I had! The problem was, these people weren’t my friends. They used me. They took advantage of me both financially and emotionally. I would receive 30 calls a day from my ‘friends’ all in crisis and feeding the drama that had become my world.

On and on it went until I was no longer the girl my family remembered; I was no longer the girl with big dreams but was simply running around in a world of chaos, drama, messiness and emotional upheaval, all created by me and the people I had accumulated around me.

This cycle went on for years and years. Thankfully, little bits of me were changing and seeking new direction.

My first turning point was an anxiety attack that landed me in the back of an ambulance on my way to hospital, requiring sedation. This anxiety attack changed my life. My life and lifestyle had to change. I didn’t want to be this person anymore.

From here, two incredible things happened. At 19, I was introduced to an amazing woman and healer, Lynette from The Soul Factory whom I have done lots of work on my mind, body, energy and spirit. This woman helped heal all that was broken and helped me change my world.

The second incredible thing was a friend taking me to my first yoga class. This friend knew what I needed in that moment. I remember walking in to my first yoga class and absorbing the fresh smell of the room; the low lighting; the healing and calming sound of the Om. I was hooked. This was something that was going to change my life. And it did. It really did.

 In 2011, my amazing partner Gavin came in to my life. Our relationship blossomed from work colleagues, to friends, to lovers & partners. Gav was my first ‘boyfriend’ and together, we have been on such an amazing journey. Gav too was caught up in a very ‘Sydney’ lifestyle and together, we have undertaken so much spiritual healing and growing as individuals and as a couple.

The birth of our beautiful first daughter in 2012 shifted my axis. I saw things differently. I wanted to be different and I wanted different things from my world; from my friends; from my life. So, with my beautiful baby girl on the hip (literally, because our 1 bedroom apartment was too small to put her down anywhere!), I commenced my yoga teacher training. I didn’t know where it would take me, but I hoped it was the start of something big.

Life continued on; little changes being made here and there, all while learning on the go as a first time Mother and the changes that brings to our relationship with our partner, friends and families.

By the end of 2013, I was blessed to be pregnant again. We were so excited to be welcoming another little person to our family. But with our excitement, there was a sense of overwhelm. We were drowning. Financially. Emotionally. Physically overwhelmed by our things. We were renting an apartment that was a bit bigger than my own apartment, so with our rent and mortgage payment, we had to find $700.00 per week. And after that, we found money for food. Bills. We were struggling and quickly going in to the red.

We felt caged in. With our second baby on the way, we had to do something. So, we sold off all our financed assets. We packed up our apartment, our dog, our cat, our baby and my pregnant belly and we came ‘home’. Home to a house that means my baby girls could play with the dog in their own backyard, not a park. A home that meant family dinners with Mum and Dad and not with ‘friends’ who fell by the wayside once the drama cycle stopped; A home that meant opportunities that were real and achievable and not chasing dreams that were never to be. We created a business – Medowie Yoga – which has taken all my training and hopes to new heights and I’ve found my spark again. This time though, I no longer take joy in ‘stuff’. Now I find joy in watching my students grow and change, I find joy in helping a woman find her feet again and setting out her goals; I find joy in connecting with women and families who are genuine and kind and don’t want anything from me other than my time and friendship. I found joy. I found me.

Healing myself and finding yoga changed my world. It helped me walk away from a toxic lifestyle; toxic people. I met and connected with my amazing partner. Together, we are now walking the path of parenthood (another huge life changer – that one deserves it’s own blog post!)

I’ve lived such a full life and am truly grateful for all that I have experienced; I now have strength where before I had weakness; I have self-love where before I had self-loathing. I’m still finding my feet in all things – I’m by no means ‘perfect’ or living the new perfect ‘holisitic’ lifestyle but I am proud of myself for where I am now. For coming ‘home’ to my family and creating a life for my girls and my partner that I can be proud of. At the time of selling of our things, it felt like we had failed. We had lost our way. Little did we know, the universe was bringing us to our biggest blessings, changing our path for the better.

And the best bit? This is just the beginning!

Thank you so much for being here. I am so grateful and honoured I get to share my journey with you here…

Love Aimee x

Here is a little sneaky peek at some of my ‘past life’ photo shoots:

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Reflections on 2016 & Intentions for 2017

Aimee AngeliqueHappy 2017 Yogis! Now, I know it’s officially the 2nd of February today, but for me, I feel like its not until my girls are back in to their normal routine with Pre-School and all our extra-curricular activities that my year has really ‘begun’. Everything after Christmas until our routine kicks back in just feels like an extension of the summer break! Is anyone else the same?

So, with the little (and big!) people back to our normal routines, it feels like the right time to take a minute to reflect on all that was 2016 and all that I am manifesting for 2017.

2016 has been a profound year for me on both a professional and personal level. I leave 2016 behind with some important lessons that saw me remember to:
  •  Surrender and trust & let go of control
  • Not believe everything I see/read on social media
  • To stand in my truth
  • That not everyone will like me and that’s ok
  • That I don’t need to be “everything” to everyone and don’t need to  be ‘perfect’
  • That I need more time in nature and less social media time
  • Seek out friendships and relationships that avoid drama and gossip
With the lessons, there also comes joy. Moments and memories that I am completely grateful for:
  • My family for their unconditional love & the lessons my girls continue to teach me
  • Reconnecting with some very special people in my life
  • Having a job that I love and not being forced to go and work for someone else, doing something that doesn’t light me up!
  • Winning the Violet Gray trip to QLD and going on that little  adventure that was a moment, just for me!
  •  Celebrating my 30th birthday in the way that felt perfect for me (and again, sorry Mum for saying no to the big birthday bash I know you wanted for me!)
  • Celebrating my 6 year anniversary with my man friend and still feeling love and being loved
Professionally, I feel proud and a sense of personal achievement when I reflect on all that I accomplished in 2016:

So, what lies ahead for 2017? I am making some big changes in my world, both personally and professionally. Today, I wanted to share with you my hopes and dreams for the year ahead. I’m putting these intentions in to the universe and seeing what comes back for me. I also love to look back over my manifestations at the years end and see what I was able to achieve; what is still to come and reflect on things that might not longer be important to me going forward.

My 2017 Goals and intentions:

Relationship:

  • Continue to deepen my connection and relationship with Gavin
  • Be more present with my girls and have lots of fun adventures together
  • Spend more quality time with my Mum & Dad and Grandparents
  • Connect with more likeminded women

Health and Wellness Goals:

  • Get into nature more
  • More yoga & meditation for me and add in weekly pilates classes
  • Start dancing again
  • More self-care and self love routines
  • Work with an awesome local naturopath on healing my gut
  • Undergo a Juice cleanse
  • Regular kinesiology sessions
  • See my chiropractor for an adjustment monthly

Travel & Adventure:

  • Attend a Wellness Retreat in Byron Bay
  • Conduct my own Wellness Retreat in Kangaroo Valley (details coming soon!)
  • Take more personal holidays with my family
  • Weekend away with Gavin

Attend Live Personal Development Events:

  • Danielle LaPorte in Sydney
  • Eckhart Tolle in Sydney
  • Tony Robbins in Sydney

Personal Goals:

  • Buy a block of land and build our dream home
  • Deepen my connection and trust with the Universe
  • Travel, holiday and adventure more
  • Spend more time in nature
  • Read at least 1 physical book and listen to 1 audiobook per month
  • Listen to more podcasts and absorb as much knowledge and information I can

Professional:

  • Create and release weekly blog posts for my tribe
  • Create and release (successfully) x2 online courses
  • Host and run x2 yoga and lifestyle retreats
  • Continue to run and host awesome events (i.e Women’s Circles, Mother-Daughter Events, Teen girls events, Happy Little Yogis Live shows)
  • Work on my speaking, filming and writing

So my beautiful tribe – what is it that you’re thankful from 2016? What changes, goals, dreams and aspirations are you manifesting for 2017? This is something that we covered in my recent  Intention Setting Workshop and I’m so proud of my beautiful ladies that came along and kicked off 2017 with a bang! BUT I’d love to hear from you below – putting your intentions and lessons out to universe by writing them down is so cleansing, healing and a powerful reminder of where it is you want to head in your life.

Are you struggling to connect with yourself and where you’re heading? Maybe 1:1 coaching might be for you. I am so excited to share I have just opened up 6 new coaching spots if you feel called to seek guidance on working through your roadblocks and creating a path to the truer you come and read about my coaching packages HERE.

Thanks for reading beautiful and I look forward to connecting with you again in 2017.

Much love Aimee x

 

 

 

 

 

Shine From Within Youth Mentor Training

Shine From Within Youth Mentor Aimee Angelique

Do you dream of creating a space for girls where they can:

Be open and honest with no judgement,

Develop important life skills 

& Completely embrace the person they truly are within?

Do you want to:

Empower them,

Help them feel like they are enough,

& Share what you’ve learned with them?

Then maybe this is for you….. 

Back in 2016 completed the amazing Shine from Within Youth Mentor training which has been created by the beautiful Amanda Rootsey. It has taught me so much and I’m so thrilled to share the details with you all!

As a Mum, Business Woman & Health and Lifestyle Coach, I’m always looking to learn new skills; listening to my intuition to follow the things that speak to me. The Shine from Within Youth Mentor training program did just that; it reached out to me at the perfect time and in the perfect way.

Like most Mums, I’m time poor and to commit my time and financial resources to something, it has to be amazing, epic, worth my time! This program is absolutely perfect because it is delivered in six modules with a new module being released each fortnight. I was so thrilled with the content, which included videos, PDF downloads, audio recordings (which I listen to in the car in between Yoga classes), group coaching calls as well as specialist interviews with guest teachers and experts, all of whom are personally selected by Amanda from Shine from Within! Topics were totally engaging and taught me skills on how to engage with young people; Duty of Care obligations; marketing and business topics; curriculum development and so much more. A link to Shine from Within website providing all course details can be found HERE.

Following my completion of the Shine from Within Youth Mentor training program, I’ve felt called to really concentrate my energies in working with young women and children; to create programs and spaces for families to come together; to nurture and foster personal relationships, explore in a safe space the changes happening to young women in mind, body and soul; teach young girls personal development skills, all the while creating a warm and encouraging environment. This course has given me the additional tools I needed to leap forward with my new teachings including the Namaste Beautiful: Mother & Daughter Evenings, Namaste Beautiful: Yoga for Teen Girlsmore Health and Wellness Workshops (more info coming soon!) and my Happy Little Yogis E-Book (being released soon!).

Are your interested in studying with Shine from Within yourself?

I am so proud and honoured to be asked to be an affiliate for this great program. I only ever endorse programs I have personally completed and loved. And I love, love, LOVED this program; it has and will continue to open doors for myself and my business. This program has also equipped me with skills that I know will be so beneficial as my beautiful girls continue to grow and their relationships and self-identity develop and change. If you feel called to undertake the Shine from Within program, please register by following the link HERE. Course applications close on Tuesday, October 31st 2017 so don’t walk, run! The first program SOLD OUT within 3 days so please jump in ASAP if you want to join. 

If you have any questions about the program please feel free to contact me via email at aimee@aimeeangelique.com

Much love Aimee X

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Educate Yourself and Make the choice!

Educate Yourself and Make the choice! Aimee Angelique

Photo credit:  Renee Bell Photography 

Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world.  ~ Nelson Mandela

Namaste Beautiful,

We’re all natural beauties, each and every one of us. To maintain & enrich that inner glow, I’ve compiled a list of some tips and tricks for a more natural skincare routine.

Our skin regenerates every 28 days and it’s important to continue a new routine for at least this time to ensure you are giving your products a true chance to work their ‘magic’.

Now this ‘magic’ within our skincare products ranges from the good, the bad and the ugly. 80% of skincare products are effectively absorbed by our skin; the dangerous part about this is that a lot of our products are full of harmful toxins and chemicals that shouldn’t be anywhere near our skin.

MAKE THE CHOICE!

Choose sustainable palm oil:
Palm oil is a commonly used ingredient in most households; margarines, biscuits, cereals, instant noodles, candles, lipsticks, ice-creams, chocolates….the list goes on. It is estimated that over half of packaged products in modern supermarkets have palm oil in them and the use of palm oil is increasing as other nations become more affluent and accepting of westernised products.

To obtain the palm oil, widespread deforestation is taking place worldwide and has pushed many species such as elephants, rhinos, tigers and orang-utans to the point of extinction.

It’s important to choose products that indicate they use and support sustainable palm oil.

Choose certified organic:
Look for labels that state ‘certified organic’. (Please see photo below for example). Organic products have become very ‘on trend’ these days and unless the product states it is certified, you really can’t be sure what it is you’re buying. Don’t be ripped off and read your labels and shop at stores you trust are selling you quality organic products.

organic certifications

Choose Cruelty Free:
In 2004, Australia was responsible for nearly 6.5 million animals being used for research and testing. Dogs, Rabbits, Mice and other animals were all exposed to toxic tests including lengthy exposure to chemicals and substances to see how much they could sustain before it killed them; other tests caused ulcers, severe burns, long-lasting pain and swelling.

Make your choice count – with your wallet. Do some research and make the swap to companies and products who support cruelty free. The internet is a great source of knowledge and information and www.choosecrueltyfree.org.au is a great place to start.

READ THE LABEL – INGREDIENTS TO AVOID!

Sulphates:
Sulphates are added to our commonly used products such as shampoos, toothpastes, make-up, handwash products and a range of other well-known household items. Most commonly, they can be identified in products that ‘foam’ up and assist in mixing water and oil based products to stop them separating.

Sulphates are known to cause irritation to the skin, hair and eyes and also internal organs. Links have also been found to cancers and other serious health complications.

What to look out for on the label:
Referred to as SLS (Sulphate); SLES (Sodium Laureth Sulfate); ALS (Ammonium Laurel Sulfate); TEA Lauryl Sulfate and Sodium C14-16 Olefin Sulfate.

Parabens:
Parabens are a form of preservative commonly found in medicine, food and beauty products. Parabens are found to be endocrine disruptors, mimicking estrogen in the body and linked to tumour growth in cancer patients.

What to look out for on the label:
Anything with the word Paraben in it; including Methylparabens, Propulara-bens; Ethylparabens and Butylparabens.

Products derived from animals:
The worst of the worst. Includes hooves, boiled skin, bones, tendons and even crushed up beatles! The reasons for avoiding these are obvious – it’s disgusting, inhumane and something no one needs near their skin and organs.

What to look out for on the label:
Carmine, cochineal, carminic acid, casein, ca- seinate, sodium caseinate, cholesterol, collagen, elastin, gelatin (including vegetable-dervied), keratin, lanolin, lanolin acids, wool fat, wool wax, placenta, placenta polypeptides protein, stearic acid, urea, carbamid.

Petroleum based products:
Petroleum jelly, liquid paraffin and mineral oils are derived from your petrol tank! Yep, that’s right beauties, these products are made from the same thing that keeps your family’s car on the move! These products sit on top of the skin like a film and stop skin from breathing and blocks the skins natural barrier.

Artificial Fragrances:
An absolute chemical cocktail of nasties! Artificial fragrances can have up to 4000 ingredients in them; most of those ingredients are chemical based. If your favourite products contain fragrances, its time to make a change, particularly if numerous of your fave products all have fragrances, that’s a bunch of unnecessary chemicals being absorbed by your skin.

Polyethylene Glycol:
Used as both a solvent or emulsifier, Polyethylene Glycol contains many heavy metals including nickel, lead, cobalt, iron, arsenic and cadmium. These metals are linked with numerous health problems and should be avoided.

Hopefully this post has helped provide some more information for you to make informed choices when it comes to you and your families skincare, household & beauty products. I’d love to hear your thoughts & what products you’ve swapped out!

Big love, Aimee  x